Don't lie to yourself, just do it
"What if you did it? What if you actually did it? How do you think you would feel? Just think about what your life would look like, if you went out and hit every goal that you have. If you actually, went out and did everything you said you were going to do."
Wanting to Improve
Back to Minnesota which means I'm back to being hard on myself.
Back to working on goals that should've been accomplished a while ago.
Back to finding out the next steps needed to continue my adventure.
What I want...
...is to return to Thailand with a focus on the "warrior" side of my plan. Train in Muay Thai with the goal to compete, train in BJJ with the goal of improving my skill. One or two years will be spent doing that.
That is what I want to focus on right now. My brain immediately starts thinking about what I want to do after Thailand. That is too far away, don't get distracted.
How will I prepare?
Well, there are a few things I need to do in order to prepare. During the four months of training, my body sustained quite a beating. So, I'm fixing some imbalances caused by that. The language is a puzzle, so I'm slowly learning that. A little bit each day, consistently.
Physically, I'm going back to strength, flexibility, and cardio training. This means running, stretching, and lifting kettlebells a few times each week. Starting off slow, just to build a habit.
I've learned from the past not to over do it.
Many people ask me where do I want to be? What is all of this for? I don't really have an answer to that. I'm 24 which seems to be a bit late to hop into this martial arts game but I want to try. Like a compass without it's arrow, I'm going somewhere but not sure where.
The quote above really resonated with me. As it is what I'm trying to do. Do everything I said I would do. Get the splits. Fight. Travel. Learn languages. Be the crazy traveler in the family. It comes with it's costs but I think it is worth it.
Reflecting over a Dirty Keyboard
The click clack of my laptop's flat keyboard is the only friend I have on the night's I write these posts. I am nervous about where this journey leads. Sometimes I wish I just chose an easier path like college or the military. But, all the adventure stories I read as a kid spoke of unknown journeys with unforeseen endings. No matter the ending, the middle part was always interesting.
Hopefully I'll do some good in the middle part.
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