Zoltar didn't give me a fortune.
The Chinese fortune cookies didn't give me anything.
A couple of odd occurrences that has lead me to think about what does it mean to have, "No Future".
On Mother's Day my family and I went to Minnesota's Largest Candy Factory. It was fun, I picked out some of my favorite candies like Gummy Smurfs, Jelly Belly Jelly Beans, Gin Gins, and some Ginger Ale. What I was happy to see was a Zoltar Machine which I've had many happy experiences with. If you don't know what a Zoltar Machine is, its a fortune telling machine that gives you a little card describing you. For me, it usually is pretty accurate which is "magical" to me. On that day though, Zoltar told me this:
"Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today. Live your days as if they are your last, because one day they will be!"
My hand reached out for the card that should've came but one didn't. Of course, I thought maybe the machine was out of cards but my mom had her fortune read an out popped a card!
As I thought more about it, the Chinese food we ordered previously came with little fortune cookies and I remember both times the fortune cookies didn't give me any little note. When I recalled this my dad laughed and asked, "Are you real? Or are you still in Maling meditating?".
On the surface it would seem that I have no future. Having no future doesn't mean its all hopeless and bleak. It just means that I get to control where I go in life. I get to steer this boat in the direction that I want. It all lines up with how I've been feeling recently, which is good. A new job, my injury is healing (slowly), continuing my studies, and just a general positive feeling.
To extend on my philosophy of "highs and lows", this is just a "high" coming from my few weeks of being "low" because of my injury and boring job. Cherishing this current feeling is important because I don't know how long this will last.
I'm feeling motivated.
I'm feeling good.
Hope you're doing well.