After a month...
"The point I'm makin' is the mind is a powerful place
And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way
Just think about it for a second, if you look at your face
Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great
You'll never be great, not because you're not, but the hate
Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith"
-"The Search", NF
A month of long hours at this factory just to earn some money towards my 修行. Realizing that they weren't giving me very little paid time off for all the work that I was doing, I think I'll now focus more on my skills, website, training, and studies instead of the money.
I'm burnt out.
So what does this all mean? A few adjustments to my schedule.
The MMA gym that I go to has most of their people going to evening classes so I need to start going there as well. This will be a good change as I can start focusing on preparing for the Sanda competition in December. With me having my weekends back, I'll be able to finish my Certified Personal Trainer studies and continue studying Thai.
I know I'm a hard worker, I just need to work hard towards other things instead of this factory.
The Current Plan for the "Next Adventure"
I still want to go to the Yunnan Shaolin Temple for 3-4 years. I've added Tiger Muay Thai into my plan as well. Let's say I'm training at Tiger Muay Thai for 2-3 months and in Yunnan for 6-8 months out of the year. This leaves me time to come home for the holidays.
Eventually, I would like to see if the people at Yunnan Shaolin Temple could help me go to the real Shaolin Temple in Henan. Not to just visit (I can do that on my own) but to live/train there. I think with my language ability constantly improving, my dedication to the sport of Kung Fu/Wushu, and interest in Chinese culture. I have a good chance of this happening.
Of course, it won't all just be train. train. train. I've seen some cool pictures of places I'd like to go... and take pictures of my own! If my Thai gets good, then maybe I'd even travel around Thailand, exploring the different Buddhist Temples and such.
In the end...
... I've saved up a good amount of money already (about double/triple the amount I saved for Maling). I'm going to work, compete, and study for a *year longer just to get experience. This time is also being used to be with family before I'm off on my own adventure.
Because, just like Bilbo Baggins, I'm not sure where this is going to take me.
*Also Covid is still restricting travel to many places